I met Amazing Boyfriend (AB) on the dating website Plenty of Fish. HAHA laugh all you want, finding an amazing guy on a dating website you snicker? Yeah well I thought the same thing NINE months ago!
I had been separated from my ex after 8 years of marriage, father of my two children, when I decided I needed to go out and have some fun! I wasn’t looking for commitment, I wasn’t looking for a guy to take me away from my problems. I wanted to heal from my separation and I wanted to feel beautiful and sexy. What better way than to go on a few dates with a few different guys and see whats going on in the world of dating.
I was totally wowed my first date with AB. Looking back I think I fell in love at first sight. I had forgotten about feeling connected to someone instantaneously. I had hidden for a long time any feelings of desire, until I saw AB. I felt young and alive. I felt 16 again.
From that night, I began my soul searching. Here I was, a 35 year old woman, an almost divorcee with two children. How did I get to this place and what did I do wrong as a woman that my marriage failed. Although I don’t regret the failure of my first marriage, I bless the failure, because I made the conscious decision to do things different the 2nd time around.
I questioned where I went wrong. This was a difficult question to answer. I dont think anybody wants to admit their shortcoming but I was determined. I wasnt the doting wife. I built resentments, I did things myself and expected my mind to be read when I was angry. I didnt want to be loved and I didnt want to be the best person I could be. I began to realize these feelings and actions are detrimental to any relationship and I decided to challenge myself by doing things different than before.
I began to do things for AB that I never would have done in the past. It hasnt been difficult because I find that I WANT to do these things differently and I think I would never have gotten to this point of compelte happiness if AB hadnt found me and without my efforts to learn from my mistakes.
I always want to make sure that AB always feels he cannot and will not live without me. I will continue my efforts every day so he always feels completely and utterly loved while being the best person I can be every day of my life because whats the point of life if you cant live it!
Don’t be afraid to fail. Don’t waste energy trying to cover up failure. Learn from your failures
and go on to the next challenge. It’s OK. If you’re not failing, you’re not growing. - H. Stanley Judd
Three Rules of Work: 1. Out of clutter, find simplicity. 2. From discord, find harmony.
3. In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. -Albert Einstein
When one door closes, another opens, but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us. -Alexander Graham Bell